this can't be love...because I feel too well

I can't sleep

how is it that some nights you're all snuggled in at ten p.m. and others you just don't want to shut your eyes?

I think it's my allergies. Or the fact that I pulled weeds for five hours today and my back just can't settle down (it is pro at the spasms)

I wrote lots of addresses tonight. And all we have to do is wait for the invites to be done on Friday so we can stuff away! :) Isn't that exciting?

I'm excited to get married. I told my little sister last night about how my marriage is going to last forever. And then I started crying. Because how beautiful and perfect is that? I get to spent the rest of my life and beyond with my sweetheart. And people always say, "I thought I couldn't love you anymore than I did on our wedding day..." And I really think that. BUT then I get even more excited to fall more and more in love with Tanner. It already happens everyday.

I met a couple yesterday at one of my favorite places, Dear Lizzie. He was patiently waiting while he wife tried on adorable clothes (that are too expensive for me to be a regular shopper there). Every time she would come out he would get a huge grin on his face and tell her how adorable she looked, how beautiful she was and how much she just HAD to buy it. I loved it. He was genuinely happy because she was happy. I started talking to them, they admired my ring (he said that Tanner had "done good") and she squealed when she told me they had been married 59 years this next Sunday.

Tanner asked me this question before he told me he loved me, "What does love mean to you?"

I can't remember my exact answer. All I remember is saying something about respect, trust, caring, and wanting that person's happiness more than yours and doing everything in your power to do so. I still think that. I love that all night Tanner kept asking me if I was okay (I was just exhausted-weeding really is back breaking labor) and not being satisfied unless I was completely happy. :)

What a beautiful gift love is. I look forward to my 59th anniversary and seeing a twenty something year old girl standing there lost in her thoughts of the future and telling her that "it's just gonna get better".

I can't wait for forever