FHE

This is how FHE went down today....it's 8:22 and I decide I want to start an online final. I open it up-"please plan for at least two hours to complete this final". I groan. Tanner, seated on the adjacent couch asks if we are going to have FHE now or a little later. I ask for later because I just want to get this done.

Fast forward an hour or so later. I have three questions left-one asks for a 1/2 page response and the last two beg for a full page. My brain has checked out at this point so I ask my sweetheart if we can have FHE now. He responds with a happy yes along with a-I just finished our taxes and we will get $11 back. (We didn't really need to pay taxes (we didn't make enough money-tmi?? but we're doing it for habit)... So we start FHE.

I sit on the couch with my legs slung over my husband. We sing a Hymn. One line in, tanner slides up to a high note and we burst out laughing. We laugh throughout the whole song. It was a funny song. Then I pray. But I'm still laughing.

I'm not just giggling...I'm full on crying. I know people really do cry when they laugh really hard but this was the first time I have ever laughed so hard that I literally had tears rolling on my cheeks. It's a full on belly laugh and I can't remember ever loosing control of myself like I did during this prayer. Tanner is laughing too, only he's really just laughing at me. After I finish, my very patient, wonderful husband looks at me and says, "I have NEVER seen you laugh so hard". I have never laughed that hard.

Then I start to break down. I start crying because I'm stressed. I don't want to study, I don't want to pack our things Thursday and move, I don't want to observe in a high school for eight hours Wed, I don't want to dance tomorrow (that's my number one thing), I don't want to finish the three questions on my final because it's just too hard. I seriously lost it. It was the strangest feeling-being roaring with laughter one minute and then crying uncontrollably the next.
Tanner just sat there, and listened. He stroked my hair and dried my tears from my face. He told me everything was going to be okay. I half way believed him. Then we read in the Book of Mormon and I was comforted. My fears went away and I was motivated to study. I finished those last three questions, and felt ready for the rest of the week.

I am so blessed and so grateful for the calming messages of the scriptures.

This Family Home Evening will go down in history.

TUESDAYS

Tuesdays are apparently my days to write on this little blog. Yay for Tuesdays. And yay for the last Tuesday of the semester. I've had some great Tuesdays this semester but I am sure glad they are over. Tanner made a lovely French dinner tonight and I looked up food ingredients for hours. It was so fun. And now my homework is complete for the semester and I just have to show up for classes tomorrow...and did I mention that Tanner and I are joining my family for a camping trip tomorrow?

We are. We're driving down to Zion's national park and hiking the subway. It's a huge slot canyon and you have to swim through frigid water....and there's not sun down there. And it's April. What are we thinking? It will be fun. My uncle who has literally 3-6% body fat (I can't remember), almost got hypothermia when he went with my dad. I am a tad bit worried about Tanner because he really doesn't have a lot of body fat. I'm just glad we'll have wetsuits.

Perhaps I'll post pictures when we get home, but chances are not very likely. Finals start Saturday and we'll be hitting those head on. YAY finals!

After finals we'll quickly pack our house (what?) and head to Texas for tour with the dance team. Then we'll fly back, turn around and drive to Tennessee for the summer. Now all I need is a swimming suit. Any suggestions?

Winner

This evening I had the opportunity to attend a student recognition dinner for the Dance Department. I was lucky to receive a wonderful scholarship from Mary Bee Jensen-the founder of the Folk Dance program. The food was great, the women were lovely and the gratitude was plentiful. The best part of the evening was when someone announced that under some seats were pieces of paper indicating the winner of each table. They were the ones who got to take the beautiful tulips in the center of each table home. I was excited but nervous because I don't usually win things like this. I was the girl in primary who always reached down under her chair and never found something. This time, I felt the piece of paper and grabbed the winning paper. I took those flowers home, vase in all and I felt so happy. It's so strange that something so small can be significant to you. I am continually blessed and those happy tulips will make me smile for days to come.